Yesterday at Church the Associate Pastor over the Middle School led the talk. When I noticed he was leading I wondered what it would be like. He was great! In our church the topics run in different Series. Each running a certain amount of weeks. This series is titled "Respectable" Sins...Taboos we tolerate. This week the topic was: UNTHANKFULNESS.
Now, I won't give you the play by play, I am already feeling super deep this morning & will probably send most of you running. But...I thought to myself at the beginning, oh well, I am thankful, this is going to be a boring topic...I was SO WRONG {PS- Not an easy thing for me to admit!} The key he wanted us to leave with was:
Again, I am a pretty faithful person. I am thankful for everything I have, I trust HIM. But am I content? Are any of us content? As a society we have created a monster. This fast paced whirlwind we have told ourselves is necessary to survive. For Instance~ Road Rage: I am so ticked if I wait in traffic, if someone isn't in a hurry ahead of me, if I miss the signal. What if I had to walk it? Cell Phones: The most incredible gift of technology at your infinite disposal, but drop my call repeatedly and see how angry I become. What if I didn't have it at all? UNTHANKFULNESS. If someone helps you out anywhere, anytime. I know you probably say "Thank You" but in 3 minutes, have you forgotten? Were you truly thankful for that person?
Now this is probably super boring. I am not a preacher although I talk enough to be one...But I felt compelled to write this. I have really been struggling emotionally these past few months. The truth is I am thankful, I am content, I am. I am also broken, and sad, and worried, and a million other feelings that I sometimes let shadow the 1st two feelings. My husband hates his job, he works terribly long hours and it has really taken its toll. I am normally super optimistic, but after my hysterectomy, I am a deflated cheerleader. I just don't have it right now. My arms ache, my heart aches. I need him to be strong, he needs me to be strong. *we are turning to the wrong person* HE has a plan for us. I know this I believe this with all my heart. truly. I am so thankful for my precious babies, for my husband, for my family, my friends. I have more than so many. I know I am selfish for feeling this emptiness in my heart. I am trying not to long for something that cannot be. to focus on what I do have and listen more to what I need to do.
Now as I pour my heart out so embarrassingly actually, I leave you with a giveaway...
So maybe you won't think I am completely crazy! Since I truly am so thankful for you all. For friendships, for supporting me so I am able to stay home and be here with these 2 precious gifts {as they make messes, destroy my house, make memories which have no price tag}. Since I probably don't say Thank You enough... I am giving away a set of custom hair bows to a random commenter from this post. Feel free to comment~ yes Tab, YOU'RE NUTS :) Giveaway will close August 9. PS~ You can totally enter the giveaway by saying, pick me pick me, lol! I was meaning to post my feelings followed by a pay it forward {giveaway} & it kind of all ran together! :)
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